I just realized my friends circle is one of the smallest in the world!

When I went to see people's friendster today, I was like wa.. die lo.. why they all got so many friends one ha? This person got 200+, another one got 100+.. I only got.. 2.. but also my fault la.. Up till now, I still don see the point of friendster. All you can do is to CONNECT, COMMENT and CONSENT, meaning to check on peoples profile, blogs (connect), say something to them (comment) and to agre to friends requests (consent).. But seems kinda cool to have many friends. But I'm still a little shy.. Oh well..

I'm confused

i'm confused
thought I finally know something but I'm confused

i try to grasp the truth on both sides but cannot conclude
so confused i feel like giving up yet still stuck in the middle.

charismatic? methodist? they are just names
one major difference is theology
not one seems wrong but none seems right
former or latter? power or truth?
understanding takes time.. and struggle
shed some light will you O'God
into the crossroad I'm facing
never let me fall into the wrong
God I only want you

Eggs! Yummy!

More than just a food
Into the stomach it goes
Satisfies real good
Seems to cure the woes

Yearning for more each day
One is never enough
Utmost delicious I say, but all this just a bluff

Enormous omelletes or simple scramble
Lovely yellow or white surrounds
Always fulfilling, always satisfying
In filled rich with nutrients too
Never eat too much though
Egg, oh my lovely egg! May you always be there for me.

Hunger

Hunger. That's the word in my vocabulary this week. All week long I've been reading about hunger for God. Jesus said, "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they will be filled".
No doubt before eating breakfast as I am now, I feel hungry. Yet, my hunger is still not so much that I become so desperate I can even gobble a lizard.
Hunger. Hungry for God. What does it actually mean? I'm sure it is not just plain hungry where the desire to eat just kicks in. I think hunger is an understatement. It is should be called starving. Starvation for the Almighty God.
But yet what does it mean? Tommy Tenney mentioned that many are actually hungry for God. They no longer want the stale food that many churhes offer. They no longer want the past bread of yesteryear. Most importantly, they do not want the GOd of the past tense. They are in fact searching for something deeper and more present. The God of the present.
Bible says that God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. But it also talks about renewal. It never says what happened in the past may not happen in the future except of course concerning various disasters like the Great Flood. We sing that God's riches are new every day.
I don't actually know what I'm talking about now. I just know that we Christians are not hungry for God. Though our souls is starving our minds continues to take the drugs or pleasure, work and money. Are you hungry? What are you doing to fulfill that hunger?

Another friend test

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The first friend test is on 18th October

Plans

Well, it's the holidays again. What a wonderful time to waste. Being probably the most important and the most meaningful holiday so far, I certainly do not want it to go to waste. After the all, this is my final long holiday before the SPM exam, I wouldn't want to waste 45 days for nothing, do I? It's also time that I make my year end review of my interesting life throughout the year. But before that, I'd like to share my plans for the holidays.
There are several agenda's on top of my list at the moment. Here it goes (from the most important downwards):

1. To draw nearer to God
2. To lay out the master plan for next year's three-pronged attack
3. To write as many articles as possible to bless others
4. To improve on my piano, guitar and vocal
5. To understand all my science subjects
6. To memorize all moral nilai
7. To revise all that I've learn this year.

Sounds like a tall order for me but by the grace of God, I will carry through. Ryner said that Satan will go all out the make my holidays as meaningless as possible and then try to make me feel guilty about it. Lord, bless me Lord., most importantly, may your plans be my plans. Amen!

Desire

Quite stressful with a lot of things going on. From youth camp to birthdays to presents to worship duties.. boy it's a bit pressuring when you do not have enough time. Still feel the joy from hearing the good news from my friend. Like ryner said to me, sometimes you just never know the impact you made in other people's life. But I always feel that I'm not daring enough to influence people the Jesus way. I'm not daring enough to tell people about Jesus directly. But I hope that in the last year at school, my friendship with her will grow much deeper and I want to influence at least one more person in a positive way, and to lead another person to Christ.

Grandma's Birthday

Oh, it's been awhile since I blogged. Have been busy in the pass few days doing lots of stuff. Tomorrow don't seem any easier. Well, one of the most important thing to occur the past week will be my grandama's birthday. Some funny things happened during the process of which I do not want to talk about now. But overall it was a success and my debut singing in public for the first time. My grandama was trilled with my sibling's and I performance. Oh, well that's all for now.

Thank you Jesus

I can hide my happiness on my face but I can't hide my joy in my heart. I'm extremly, greatly, immensely, amazingy, unexplainably, whatever morely joyous. I'm so happy to hear from my friend that her spiritual life is improving. I'm so happy that my many prayers have been answered. Hallelujah! Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not like me but I feel like dancing all day and night!!! Glory be to God! May God continue to bless her, may she have the joy that comes from above. Thank you Jesus!