Everything I hoped for, longed for and desire

Everything i hoped for
Longed for and desire
Alternatives just won't do
I tried I search but maybe not enough
Nevertheless how much will do?
Everything i hoped for, longed for and desire

I am whom God created, in His likeness but not like Him

Nowhere have i found
Everything i hoped for longed for and desire
Everything from my in most being
Daddy in heaven, why so far?

Yes, I believe Your Word holds true
Over the years i can testify
Under Your hand how much i've grown

Thank you for the good times, the bad times, the best times
Over the years I can testify

Lord, speak Your servant needs the truth more now
Intrigued, confused, needing a guide
Save me from destructive lies
Then I can be strong to serve again
Everything I hoped, for longed and desire
Now would You reignited my fire?

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Desert-- Poem

The desert the seeker marched to a desert indeed
Looking for miracles what water can he heed?
Those that he find its all about leak
Besides the sun that he finds, is all other light bleak?

The sandstorms fly, the dust surrounds
Solutions are few, darkness abounds
In are the noise gone are the sounds
Need to watch my step as many are the hounds

At a place called Massah, or even at Meribah
Besides stones and rocks, is there a redeemer?
The deserts where Israel lost the hope of a winner
Shall the seeker hope to better and a dinner?

Moses found it tough to lead these people
Complaints and arguing his face must be pimples
But everytime he cried out a prayer of the simple
Help was on the way,his face shone bright with a sizzle

Fatigue sets in as he lost his way
His guiding compass doesn't seem to say
The water he searched and the water he lost
Why did he choose this path to the sandstorm be tossed?

He thought of the people who depended on him
But that memory of them is becoming dim
Has he depend his strength to limp
Isn't all strength coming from Him?

Has he chosen the wrong path or maybe the wrong person
Is he trying to act a hero but now is a treason
Why are there no oasis to rest and to bless
Didn't thou hast promised to give more not less?

The desert of friendship, the desert of paths
Wondering around will it be 40 years of the devils laughs?
Is this all true or has the sand gotten in the eyes
Is this a mirage, a barrage of lies?

Speak to me Lord and open my eyes
Speak me the truth, expose all the lies
I fatigued and lost, nowhere to go
I need your water, O' living hope

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
But holy lean on Jesus name

On Christ the solid rock i stand
All other ground is sinking sand
All other ground is sinking sand

Changes

Form 6 structure is changing. Will tell more when confirmed. I've become a prefect now. And i rejected a lucrative offer to give tuition. Busy. Exams' in 2 days. Steady your oars, Jeremy! You can pull through this storm! Pray for me. To rise on wings like eagles. Tired. Here's a song to share. Beautiful song.

Still

Alabaster Jar

I toiled the sun in sweat and blood

I mustered couraged ready to flood

But have my efforts gone to waste?

Why is the fruits not of my taste?

Jonah grumbled at the sweltering heat

He was angry and took the beat

God sprouted a tree to overshadow him

Just as quick as it came the tree became limp

Why? Asked the ungrateful Jonah

Don't you know now its sauna?

Why? Asked God is His awesome power

The tree is my right its not your flower

I have now one alabaster jar

It's worth more precious than a thousand cars

It's oil has fermented, became great wine

I seriously thought it was time to dine

Then time shook its head gently told me no

I went my way, i asked him "so"?

He rang louder telling me not yet

"It is my will and it is set"

Why? Asked the one to feast

You know my desire, you're the last of my least

Why? God answered in awesome power

Do you hold to the jar, not the jars i'll shower?

What i learnt in ISCF today is that when an acrobat swings from one spot to the other, there's no way he can hold on to the string and expect to reach the other end. There's also no way, he can depend on himself to get across. The only simple but most difficult thing he needs to do is this: let go of the string and by faith know that his partner will safely catch him.

I know God is waiting on the other side. I know the hands of God are safe. I know he'l catch me. But can i let this string go?

Time will tell.

Despite this, i'm convinced of one thing: That letting this go will result in 2 fold, 3-fold or even a hundred-fold blessings.

By faith.