Once upon a time in my life

Awaited, Alighted now Afflicted

Feasible was word in mind

Received the offer to shine

Using talents for secular world

Sought the dream of things unfurl

The garden of herbs the place i was

Realising a dream too soon too fast

Another project to be done

Tedious, opportunity, fun fun fun..

Injected new knowledge in order to work

Only to impress did i truly lurk

Needing permission to walk in the murk

I did my best, my imperfect best; my hands were clumsy but must it just show?

Chance opens up new suns have dawn

And didst those hands land on my living lawn

Needing the touch that knits or tears

Transforming me either to a prince or a bear

Emperor court didst in i step

Xylophones of lies entered my breath

Princess flower was cold to feel

Lain to my heart why joy was kill

Another moment i cant explain just why

I was too selfish the flower won't know

No man is perfect please touch be real

Without regret i stormed the night

Hear in my home weary from a fight

You flower has eyes in my heart has light

................"Gomennasai."...............................

Random thoughts

Enduring a feeling i can't explain

Living at a time of excitement and strain

Another passes by will things still be the same

Into adulthood of independence and pain

Needing more than wisdom as my heart grows faint

Enduring a feeling i can't explain.

I am a child.. a child of God

Morning by morning a new day is born

In and out let as past be torn

So much new beginnings each day is sworn

So much hope springs from each morn

You oh man have the power to change

Over the rivers a time of fame

Under the seabeds a lifetime of chance

Everything I hoped for, longed for and desire

Everything i hoped for
Longed for and desire
Alternatives just won't do
I tried I search but maybe not enough
Nevertheless how much will do?
Everything i hoped for, longed for and desire

I am whom God created, in His likeness but not like Him

Nowhere have i found
Everything i hoped for longed for and desire
Everything from my in most being
Daddy in heaven, why so far?

Yes, I believe Your Word holds true
Over the years i can testify
Under Your hand how much i've grown

Thank you for the good times, the bad times, the best times
Over the years I can testify

Lord, speak Your servant needs the truth more now
Intrigued, confused, needing a guide
Save me from destructive lies
Then I can be strong to serve again
Everything I hoped, for longed and desire
Now would You reignited my fire?

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Sadness

I can't contain it, the fear, the bruden
Always present, many times overcomed
Must i go thru this? Is there no other way?

Seeing my influence, who am i?
Another leader who would soon say goodbye?
Defeated victor who gives hope and lie?
Never never would i allow myself to rise
Ever ever God is before me
See me for who i really am.
See me, world, for who i want to be.

Peace?

To be a simple yet wise,
Inasmuch as i want, i tried
Googling every possible answer
Energy diverted, diffracted
Respond not given, peace unfound

Friends Will I Miss

Ever yellow, ever bright, ever fun, lively light
Looked at you with tender mercy, was it a choice which right
Another person will it be? Another time will you I see
Into your eyes, one last gaze, not even a chance, I am fazed
Neverthless the Lord has given, nonetheless he has taken away
Even as yellow has dimmed, even as light has paled
Life must go on tho' chance has flew, sorrow and sadness, did i blew?
Into Your hands I offer my life, I accept it fuller tho with strife.
Never regret, will never forget, but i will let, stil hoping not a sunset
God is good all the time. Amen, amen, his will is mine.

THE MESSAGE

EVEN AS I MADE THOSE FOOD
LEAVING A LOVE AND A MESSAGE IN
ANOTHER SALAD ANOTHER SUSHI
I ASK MYSELF WHAT AM I DOING ACTUALLY?
NEVER HAD I SACRIFICED AS SUCH
EVER HAD I KNOWN A LIFE SO MUCH

IMMANUEL SHINE IN, SHINE THROUGH ME

DEEDS ARE NOTHING
IF FROM A SELFISH HEART
DEEDS ARE NOTHING

IMMANUEL SHINE IN, SHINE THROUGH ME
TO BLESS YOUR PEOPLE

FOREVER I AM SAVED
ONLY BY GOD'S GRACE
REVEAL YOUR WILL O' LORD

YES LORD I AM HERE
ONLY AT YOUR SERVICE
UNDER YOUR LOVING CARE

ANOINT ME WITH YOUR WORD
MEET ME IN MY PRAYER
EVER JUST LET ME KNOW
NEEDS, FUTURE MY LIFE LOVE YOU WILL SOW

Return, please, return!

Every time I look at you, I don't know what to do
Living my life as if it only was for you
All I know is that your smile paint will my life colourful
Inside is a burning desire for you
Now yet all i want to do is to see you ever
Ever only leaning on the Lord eternally

Love God, my dear
Iluminate those around with His light
Never let the weeds of the world choke you
God wants to come in your life

Lean on the Lord
I only want to see

Fight this good fight of faith
Even though Idesire even more
Never turn away oh love
God's daughter, that's all I ask of you.

I'm confused

i'm confused
thought I finally know something but I'm confused

i try to grasp the truth on both sides but cannot conclude
so confused i feel like giving up yet still stuck in the middle.

charismatic? methodist? they are just names
one major difference is theology
not one seems wrong but none seems right
former or latter? power or truth?
understanding takes time.. and struggle
shed some light will you O'God
into the crossroad I'm facing
never let me fall into the wrong
God I only want you

Eggs! Yummy!

More than just a food
Into the stomach it goes
Satisfies real good
Seems to cure the woes

Yearning for more each day
One is never enough
Utmost delicious I say, but all this just a bluff

Enormous omelletes or simple scramble
Lovely yellow or white surrounds
Always fulfilling, always satisfying
In filled rich with nutrients too
Never eat too much though
Egg, oh my lovely egg! May you always be there for me.