Of thanksgiving, petition and lessons.

School holidays!!! No!!!
.. ha ha.. anyways... it's school hols again.. exams are over... again..
There are several good news coming during the hols. First of all, sam is coming back! (not that I'm that happy.. lol.. just joking).. Next, its the hols again (which means I'll prob switch to lazy mode again esp without choir). Then, its going to be my favourite month of the year- June (you better tell me you know why!)! Of course let's not forget it is going to be a time of resting, rejuvenating, revision and restructuring.

Ok, before I enter into my holidays, I have to publicly count my blessings for the Lord has done in my life over the past 3 weeks:

1. Thank you Jesus for guiding my conducting on May 20th (State-level Teacher's Day Celebration)
2. Thank you God for giving me a good brain.
3. Thank you for guiding me in my relationships with others and enriching them
4. Thank you for keeping me and her healthy
5. Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you.

But forgive me for:

1. Losing my focus on you even in church
2. Not being serious in my exam
3. Not loving others as I should (esp those whom people stay away from)
4. Unintentionally always seeking glory for myself and not you

Well, God has taught me a lot during these 3 weeks too. One lesson is that I should never guess a person's intentions or thinking. It is always best to go directly to him or her and ask, lest we misunderstand. I nearly threw away 2 friendships because I thought I was not important to him/her. Another lesson is that I must strive in order to succeed. I guess God has tried to tell me this ages ago but I never could accept the fact that success does not come without hard work. Another lesson is, it is always good to encourage others. Although sometimes some people are not actually sad but just look sad, its no harm done to go and encourage them. Even if its a false alarm, its still nice to know someonew cares.

Latest favorite song

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

True Love Waits Rally

When I left my church on the night of 26th April, I left with mixed emotions. On one hand I was thrilled someone special came and sat beside me to support me although she doesn't know how encouraged I was. On the other hand, the lack of encouragement from my church members left me wondering if I sang well enough to make an impact on the people that came to the talk that night.
True Love Waits. That was the theme of the night and the theme song that was composed by my sister and lyrics written by me. The night started off with that song which I had grown to endear myself to. My duet partner Jocelyn kicked it off by singing the verse and prechorus so beautifully, and I, drawing on all the emotion and strength I could get from the Almighty one and special one, sang the chorus. I could see the smile on her face at the sometimes when she looked at me. I would have looked at her longer if I could without raising suspicions.
Then, came the tambourine dances proceeded by the P&W. It was good to praise God together with 400+ youths, especially during action songs like Now That You're Near. We had fun and praise. Although it was short as I felt I had to save time for the more important stuff of the night, it was great to worship and lead worship in such a big setting. Praise God for giving me peace. May His name be praised.
The talk lasted 40 minutes or so and it was really funny to have Rev. Dr. Tie to be our speaker that night. He spoke on the need for purity and things to look out for. After that, it was the dance of the True LOve Waits Song and drama and Q&A and the end. We got free gifts that bears TLW that reminded us that True LOve Really Waits. Oh, we also signed a pledge.
My point is usually after singing there'll be tons of people saying well done and stuff like that but that night, there wasn't. Like I did something wrong. But looking back I thank God, only 2 did because indeeed it should be God that is glorified, not His servant. Indeed, from composing the song till the last word of the night, it is not about us impacting the 400+youths. It is God. The fact that we still can draw so many people in spite of the clash of dates with ER is a miracle.
Yes, I admit I was disappointed I wasn't glorified but you can see how stupid I was. It's just one of my flaws that I need cleansing by Jesus from. I'm not perfect! But may God empower me to be more and more like Him.
So what's up in my life? Important dates:
1. 10 May: Exam!!!!!
2. 17 May: Sis Birthday
3. 18 May: One of good friend's birthday
4. 20 May: State level teacher's day celebration! (I'm co-conducting with Wee Cheng)
5: 24 May: Someone long lost is coming home!
6: June Holidays:
7. 14 June: Those who don't know this date need to know me better. (wonder how many presents will I get?)

And pray for my exams, especially. I'm so distracted by something I can't say here and many other things. I need to focus! I still don't understand time efficiency. Five years of laziness is not easy to change.