Love.
This topic was discussed on Thursday during English. Ha ha.. you guessed it.. it was ignited by none other that that class chatterbox.

It all started when he asked teacher, how does the emotional thing happen between a boy and girl? He was wondering, how can such a coincidence where one will like the own will exist. Amazing isn't it?

And teacher answered, "Boy plus girl equals love", only for him to add: "And then break-up." This is when the discussion began.

So teacher began asking around for our opinions. She was wondering if we are as pessimistic as Ryner. Do we all think there is no true love in this world?

I can't really remember what are the responses of the few that answered but i'll try my best to tell. For one, ernie answered that love is a waste of time. Bernard said there is no true love. Willie said no comment. But as the question goes around, i was so hopeful that it will eventually come to me because i have lot's to share. But to no avail.

Yet what will i answer? I guess this is what i'll say.

Love is confusion, and complication especially at the starting stages. You will have uncertainty of whether one likes the other. Even when you are really in a relationship, it is not gonna be any easier. But even as love is confusing and complicated, i must say that love is the most beautiful thing (besides God's love that is).

Well, these are based on my experience only. .. ha ha.. and i'm not exactly in typing mood now, hence the boring narration.. sorry bout that... well... let me hit the climax before ending.

My main criteria of a wife:

1. Must love God more than me ( i can't risk the wrath of God on her)
2. Must love my parents (or i'll be torn between the two)
3. Must know how to cook (of course la.. or we'll be hungry..)
4. Must have character (i don't mind if you're not beautiful or bad-tempered.. but if you don't have a heart, please don't look for me.. ha ha..)
5. Must be family-oriented (you know la.. family comes before work)
6. Must know how to talk and listen to introverts like me (i don't want my home to be a library but if you talk too much.. err.. let's say it ain"t good)

God is good.

It's been ages since i added anything.. was really busy man... but i try to make it a point now to update at least once a week for your sake, especially my faraway friend..

The year started off missing two of my best friends. One went to Taiwan, the other to some more modern place called Banting. I was a little not use to it. For the past week or so, my confidence level has suddenly dropped so low, and i was so under a pressure of nowhere. I mean, what is so pressuring about being a class monitor, or worship coordinator or even doing a maths project for SEAMEO. Of course i can't deny the fact that pressure exist but the build-up over the last week was unbearable, I could have broken down any time.

My cat friend that went to the "modern" place was my prayer partner, my only. Just in case you didn't know, prayer is what sustains me during times of stress. When I feel bad, a lot of times i will sms as many faithful friends as possible to ask for prayer support but the best kind of prayer partner that i like is the one who can prayer for me and with me, though sms is also ok.
Fortunately, God gave me one more person whom i can pour out my all. So last Friday, i just poured out everything inside me. My worries, pressure, feelings. I talked for about 5 minutes non-stop, saying everything. How often will people hear me do that? But i realised in order to break free, i have to ask for support from a friend. Praise the Lord for friends!
This week, my "taiwan" friend has returned, offering me more hope and especially that i have more prayer warriors as my backbone. I also feel much more confident and relaxed now after my period of pouring out to my friends and God (during Saturday). Thank God for friends and fellowship with Him.
After those set-backs i made a point to be more joyful and confident. Oh ya, did i mention an incident? Nah... listen up then.. miraculously, on Friday night during my guitar lesson, my teacher who rarely speaks life issues talked about handling tough times and stressed. He talked about always thinking of big problems as small problems which i find so true now because with God, there is no big problems. Of course, he also talked about watching funny movies on You-tube to relieve stress but that is irrelevant here.
So I will do my best by God's grace upon me to not only be a shining light, but also to be a joyful light, not too dim and not too bright. As a frind says his pastor puts it, who would want to come to Jesus if all they see if some forlorn and depressed figure who claims he wants to righteous all the time? He's got a point. Righteousness is important but without joy that ain't Christianity. Joy that comes from God, love that is inspired by Him and righteousness that comes from faith is what makes Jesus the true way. Anything superficial must go.
I guess thatz all for now. By the way, i'm getting sick. So are people around me. Pray for us! Bye!

A new year, a new day, a new beginning as some may say. But really what's so new? Come to think of it, it's just "tomorrow, tommorow and tomorrow". I think I'll just get to the point.

This year, a lot of opportunities seemed to come my way even before the year began. To start it, I already have a science project on my hands, plus i'm P&W Coordinator now and most probably class monitor. Only God knows what other doors will He open or close. But opportunities make me afraid. In the Bible, sometimes opportunities aren't there as a blessing, rather it's temptation in it's sweetest form. Think of David when he could have killed Saul and stuff like that. I'm afraid that I can't handle praise that comes from success and fall like Saul did. I'm afraid I let pride and selfishness rule me. I'm afraid.. really am.. yes i can control my actions but somehow my emotions are out of reach.. it's strange but sometimes i feel arrogant although i do not want to be... Please pray for me that success will not mean glory to me but to God, that pride will not be my ultimate downfall. I end with my theme song this year.



In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope

Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord



Happy new year!

My favourite songs this Christmas. Enjoy!



We Are The Reason-David Meece

As little children we would dream of
Christmas morn and all the gifts and toys
we knew we'd find,
but we never realised a baby born one blessed
night gave us the greatest gift of our lives.


Chorus:
We are the reason that He gave His life,
we are the reason that He suffered and died,
to a world that was lost, He gave all He could
live to show us the reason to live.


Verse 2:
As the years go by we learned more
about gifts, giving of ourselves
And what that means.
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying
in the rain because of love, because of love.


Bridge:
I've finally found a reason for living,
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him,
In all that I do, every word that I say,
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him.


Chorus 2:
And we are the reason that He gave His life,
we are the reason that He suffered and died,
to a world that was lost,
He gave all He could give,
to show us the reason to live.
He is my reason to live.

©1980 Word Music, Inc. (a div. of Word Music Group, Inc.)
All rights reserved. International copyright secured.
CCLI song #18682

Remember Me by Mark Schultz

Remember me In a Bible cracked and faded by the years
Remember me In a santuary filled with silent prayers
CHORUS:
And age to age
And heart to heart
Bound by grace and peace
Child of wonder, Child of God
I'll remember you
Remember Me

Remember me
When the color of the sunset fills the sky
Remember me
When you pray and the tears of joy fall from your eyes

CHORUS

Remember me
When the children leave their Sunday school with smiles
Remember me
When they're old enough to teach
Old enough to preach
Old enough to leave

CHORUS

Age to age and heart to heart Child of wonder child of God
Remember me
Age to age and heart to heart Child of wonder child of God

Tagged

Games rules and regulations

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question to make it total 20 questions, then tag to 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tag. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.You must add the one who tagged you, then spread it to 8 people, let the game go on, returning the tag to sender is prohibited.



1. What was your childhood dream?
To have a lovely spouse, settle down, have money to spend and have a wonderful family.


2. Do you like rainy or a sunny days?
Sunshine or rain, I'm just the same. But I love rainy days because it is more bearable especially to sleep or nap.


3.Which colour is your favourite?
I love blue but only a certain type or so but i don't know what is it called. I like green and purple and orange and golden yellow and red and.. I think I like every colour but if it is to vote, let it be blue. Shalom.


4. If you've the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
"I love you just the way you are. "

5. Which place have you wanted to visit the most?
I would say the Islands of Malaysia. I really want to experience the beauty as they say of these beaches.

6. Which part of you do you hate most?
My brain. It functions too slow and most of the time, i do not know what is it thinking when it does what it does.

7. When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?
"I will sing; I will praise". Three things: Sing, pray and sleep. Usually only when things are rather serious then i would tell others. So make sure you pay attention when i tell you something.

8. What are you most afraid of losing?
My relationship with my family and my friends i supposed. With my circle so small now, i can't bear being alone. But i guess nothing compares to losing my memory. It is when you are the most vulnerable. I can't imagine forgetting all i learnt about God and His love.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her or would you just keep it as a secret in your heart, observing by yourself?
Well, for now, I would say i will keep it to myself. It is unbearable but i know how incapable i am in managing the most complex human relationship in life. Maybe when i mature and is ready to take up such a huge responsibility then i will confess whatever the risk. For now, i'll just try my best to be the other person's guardian angel.

10. List out 3 good points of the one who tagged you.
1. Easy to talk to
2. Open
3. Nice falsetto

11. What are the requirements that you are hoping for in your other half?
Maybe i need to write another post on this

12.Till now, what moment do you regret the most?
The moments i fail to control myself, especially my temper. You probably won't see it because you are not my brother. I just hate it when not only i can't control my temper, i can't control what i say, or rather the lack of it.

13. What type of person do you hate most?
I hate people who only think of themselves and fail to consider other's plight. I also hate procrastinators also but i'm also one myself.

14. What is your ambition?
If my ambition should be based on what i'm good at, i would say none. Well, over the years, i have received comments on what i have potential in like speaking in public (only for those who heard though), singing, playing piano and even leadership. Yet because i'm not passionate enough to transform potential into goods, it remains just that: Potential. I like psychology and areas involving speaking though.

15. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
I don't believe there are bad people, even if i would use the adjective at times but i rather say misguided. Anyways, i suppose people who know what is wrong yet continue to do so for thier own sake.

16. If you can have 1 dream granted, what would it be?
To be wiser than Solomon? Tempting but i suppose is to have a whole Jesus-perspective of people and things. Wait... that's a desire... dream? To see all Christians singing passionately for Jesus everywhere they go.

17. What do you think is most important in your life?
Jesus. Without him, i won't be where i am now.

18. At what age do you wish to marry?
If my relatives were to ask me now, i would say 25. No specific reason but i feel it is better to marry young.. haha.. not so much about the fertility part though.. But most important is to consider whether i fulfill three important factors: Do I have God's blessing? Am I mature enough? Am I committed?

19. What do you want as your Christmas present?
All of Max Lucado's books if you please. Or a laptop will do.. how about a skateboard? Roller skate? Come on, I never played them before.

20. This is my question: What am I doing here? What is my purpose of life?
Honestly, i don't know.

Now, let me tag this to:

1. Joan Wong
2. Ambrose Wong
3. Dennis Ling
4. Ernest Soo
5. Florence Goh
6. Fiona Tan
7. Bernard Chieng
8. Lai Wei Yei

... not that they have or blog or anything.. even if they do, they don't know mine.. ha ha..

My Year-end trips- a conclusion

Sometimes, when you take too long to blog about something, it is as if the event lost its significance. Like my vacation and the youth camp, it's like you don't feel like blogging about it anymore.

Well, i think i'll just write a synopsis about both here then.
Penang-Cameron trip.
It was the best trip i ever had and I mean it. Yes, i been to Australia and it was better than Penang but i didn't really get to enjoy the place because of one of my past phobias which those close to me will know. This time in Penang, it did happen again but not that bad and a lot of time i manage to subdue it in Jesus name. So I can enjoy the lovely food there, especially in TGI Fridays, love that place a lot. Got proffessional workers too.

And i learnt a lot from my trip here. I learn more about Geography and History. Regret not coming earlier, i could have been Geo and Sej pro if I did, just hope my bro didn't miss this chance to learn.

I also made new friends, especially with Uncle Ronnie. Will always remember his famous quote to me while we were speaking, :"You can choose your wife but you can't choose your parents". I will definitely not love someone so blindly till i can't even tell my right hand from my left. If I do, faithful friends out there, please do me a favour and knock the senses back to me.

I also got to watch my first English Premier League on Astro. Too bad Chelsea lost to Arsenal that day.

I got to see new places, know the culture, albeit only a bit, of West Malaysians. I did come back with a renewed determiantion to fight the good fight.

I also managed to share about God too but I won't say how. Just want to challenge you to do the same on your trips.


Youth Camp.
Uncle Maclean Patrick. Boy, he is a great speaker. I learnt a lot from him. The most profound thing i learnt from him is this interesting quote

"What are you doing here?"

Indeed, what are we doing in the youth camp? He asked that so many times, i just nearly exploded and said:" I'm here to experience God and seek Him!!". I would have exploded if he pointed the question to me. It also made me sad that this question wasn't asked earlier. I would have asked for night curfews on the campers and tougher rules so that the camp's main objective, that is learning more about God will not be compromised. :(

Conclusion: These 2 activities have shaped the way I think and i hope it is everlasting and not just hangat-hangat tahi ayam. Pray for me!

Cameron highlands, a place of cool air and beautiful greens... and red strawberries..

Yeap.. the third day of my vacation will be spent in Cameron Highlands. The journey there is about 5 hours. 2 hours plus across the Highway to Ipoh and 2 more hours up the hilly highlands to Tanah Rata, Cameron, Pahang.

Our guide for the trip is Uncle Ronnie. Since I'm kinda prone to getting dizzy when in a car (and because i vomitted 14 years ago when going up Blue Mountain, Sydney), my parents ask that I sit in front.. with Uncle Ronnie.. This put me in a rather awkward position. I love to talk to adults but I'm also very shy around them too. Anyways, could be a divine appointment.

So the journey began. The journey of a vacation and a friendship.

Throughout the journey Uncle Ronnie and I kept talking. He tells me a lot about the areas we past by. He says Taiping is Malaysia's wettest spot. It rains almost everyday. Even more interesting, there was even some time ago when oldies will just gather at the kopitiam to bet at what time will it rain. The winner gets a cup of coffee. Haha..

Ipoh on the other hand is full of limestone hills. So much there is even space for cave temples there. Since mineral content in the soil is high, plants also grow quite fat.. or at least the beansprout i eaten.. but food there is not bad too..

Bee farm. My first stop in Cameron. It was rather dizzling there so didn't really see much. Rest assured, there are lots of flowers to attract bees and bees to extract the flowers and poof! It became honey in containers! They sell herbal eggs there too. Oh ya, here's when a funny story occured.

My mom's friend was in the mini canteen when she saw someone cooking something. Ah, the aroma that filled her nose was just so tempting? She thought it was meat or some delicious food that is sold. Wanting to buy, she asked the cook:"What is this?(luckily not:"how much")".

The cook replied:" This for the dogs."

Haha.. anyways.. If you are ever planning to go to Cameron be warned: Bring your sweater! The wind there is cold alright. But if it blows that is. I thought I was man enough to withstand it. And boy what surprise it was to have such cold wind blowing at my face. Luckily, I was brilliant enough to have a jacket on my back.

If you go Cameron, a good place to visit will be at the Pasar Malam in Brinchang. Got food and toys (souvenirs). Prices are almost the same too. The only thing is if you want the best price make sure you explore every stall first. Some may sell 12 for RM10 but some 13 for 10.

The Cactus Valley is a good place for plant lovers. Rose Garden is another recommended spot especially if you want to see the good scenery at the top (not for the unfit.. be sure to do some warm-ups!). The Boh Tea Plantation is a must see too. It is really an eye opener to see such a large plantation. But do not buy the tea there. It is said that tea there is more expensive than those sold outside.















There are also a lot of strawberry farm which you can pick your own strawberries. There a bit more expensive but at least all of them are in good conditions.. unless you pluck the wrong one.. you are not that stupid right? Just pick the red one la.. Too bad strawberries can't last long. Even in the refrigerator, it may only last one day. Oh ya, be careful not to touch the berry when you pluck. Just pluck the stem. Touching the berries can make it rot faster, for some reason.

Kea Farm quite near to Equatorial Hotel is also a good place to go. The restaurant offers good lunch while the best jam is there too. Rose Garden is also nearby.

And by the way, all around Cameron you will be surrounded by strawberries. Nope, not the real ones. It is the starwberry pillows, umbrella, fan, bolster, and even blantket that is sold almost everywhere.. and for some reaon, spongebob too..

That's all for now from me.. Just remember, wherever you go on vacation, make sure you go with a good guide. Then you may make the most of your vacation. Signing off.